Thursday, February 4, 2010
One of the hardest things to do in life is to fall in love. I can say i have done this twice. I like someone now but i cant act on it because i dont think they feel the same way. he is sweet, amazing cute, just an awesome guy, But he tends to flirt with everyone and not even notice i am there and that is so fusterating.
I also cant stand when a guy you have been talking to for over a year who you have liked and they have liked you but because of location and what not, it just doesnt work out, but they text you and say that they have another girlfriend how is that surpossed to make me feel cause i feel pretty damn lousy.
I really like this guy but i dont know how to tell him im not that good at it. There is this one girl who i fucking hate she is a stuck up and really just a bitch. I hate girls like that . I don't know what to do. Its so hard. I like to see people happy. but then i think about how im so unhappy because i have no one. I mean family and friends are great but its not the feeling of being in love with someone who also feels the same. i have been lied to about people being in love with me. it hurts to have someone tell you that dont love you. you do everything in your passion to make things work but they fall apart. you wear your heart on your sleeve and get no where.
some people think that you cant be in love so fast but you cant control who or how you fall in love it just happens. i wish i was different. i think if i looked different i would be better at this love thing.
i dont think people take me seriously when it comes to romance or anything like that. it just hurts to not be loved. i wish things were so much different. I dont know what to do about this guy you i like and he doesnt know it. its hard to tell someone that. how do you ask someone out or even tell them you like them. with out getting hurt. i have been hurt way to much. i just dont want to go through that again. i want to walk on the beach holding someones hand or cuddle and watch a movie just being in someones arms.
Thats all i have for today. i needed to write this down so i can think about it and maybe it will help me fiquare out what i can do .